meek-lonely

drunk last night went to bed at 430 in the morning passed out at 430 in the morning woke up an hour ago mouth tasting like alcohol reaking of alcohol brushed my teeth puked stomach acid and shit cried for you but its my fault anyways right? im the one who did it right? wanna be drunk now wanna be dead now where has that gun gone now..?

its ok its like i know what u feel but i really dont kno cuz its never happened to me i hate it im always the bad guy i miss you i think i love you you do that thing where u suck me back in just like u are now i miss not being your girl and holding my hand you held it perfectly and how you kissed me you kissed me perfectly and you would hold me and kiss me on the forehead and tell me im gorgeous i love it do it again i dont think i can be with anyone right now.. no matter how bad i wanna be with you cuz i wanna be with you sooo fucking bad it hurt soo much to work yesterday i was holding back tears had that lump in my t